NEW YEAR

I have a no plan about that I will hang out with last day of 2010
and first day of 2011.
If I do not buy ticket to go back to SIzuoka, may be I have to
stay in my home alone. It little sad. and lonely.
umm,If I will not go back to Sizuoka I might will go the bar that
I used to work and spent time( It have a posibilty I have to work with no money.) But, I think it little sad too.
Umm, My bf may be go back his parents' house and may be
we will not contact with each other about 1week?
and my best friends hang out with she or his lover or parents.
Umm, I have to go back Sizuoka? or my parents' house in konohana?
anyway I have a no plan yet. I have to think it...
and I have to clean my house and I have to pay rent for my house
and I have to go to a part time job.

I want to get Otosidama for another person.
But may be I have to pay Otosidama for my relatives...
Its so pity.

lonely Christmas (i have to go part time job...)
, and lonely new year.(Im alone?)

what I have to do?

Discoveries

thesedays, I discoveried ra-men shop.
May be some people know that I began to a single life.
and I still have not a refrigerator washing machine.
So,I have to go out eat somiting.

And, I discoveried ra-men shop named MATUYA.
I can go MATUYA to walk 1 minitu for my house.
the taste is soso. just simplicity. mother's taste.
price is soso too.

But< thesedays I often go MATUYA because MATUYA can go to 1 min.

When I'm 40.

When I'm 40...
I don't want to imagine it.
I want to remain 19 years old.

my mother is 40 years old.
I think she is so young.

But, I dont want to be.

My idel is
when I'm 40 I have a lot of money
and I still not OBASAN
and I always fell happy.